i am not wonderwoman

i am disgusted by the fact that i have approximately 2 weeks to clear 2 projects. out of these 2, the prof claimed that we can finish one within 2 days. of course you can do it because you are the prof and we are the students. add to the crowd, 2 new assignments from that stats prof who doesnt announce any uploads and secretly hope that all students check their email and ivle everyday. have more fun, 2 presentations not done yet. to top it out, 2 end of sem tests next week.

typing this out makes me realise i really have lots of work to do for the next 2 weeks before i go for my study break. this is a classic example of squeezing every single drop of water out of us. dont the prof communicate or at least lunch together because they seem to be some pathetic souls, camping in their offices, staring at the screens and plotting new ways to kill us all? well, i think they did a pretty decent job here.

2 more weeks and probably a short break like a few hours and off to mugging for the big EXAMINATIONS. yeah! all the way.

xiaoyee's 23rd birthday

24 oct 08 is the day i had been looking forward to for the past few weeks. thinking of ways to make it special to surprise him. i want to make it the best because it is my first time celebrating his birthday alone with him.

we did and ate everything he loves. watching tropic thunder (damn! it was hilarious), eating the impossible dim sum and sun with moon! it was a rather private and quiet birthday. not exactly the typical birthday when you have groups of friends gather together and giving you their best wishes. i kinda like the former. at least i dont have to entertain the guests with a few sentences and hope they will feel at home. so just put away the social entertaining.

yeah! finally you are 23-years-old. hope you had fun and enjoyed your birthday. love you. =)

just another night

this is one of those nights which i missed. just sitting in front of the TV with my mum, chatting. occasionally i would laugh at her because she usually fell asleep in front of the TV and claimed that she wanted to watch TV. tonight, it was a serious talk.

she could not see my efforts. was it i did not try hard enough or she did not understand? i did not explain much because she could forget something i told her a few weeks ago, so why bother. i just sat there and listened.

although she did not say it directly, i could sense she has high hopes on me. something like to be as good or even better than my sister. she would not approve any arguement on this. stress? definitely, but i have to take it as a good motivation. i have always told myself that i must do well in the future so that i could provide her a good retirement. she would not have to work this hard anymore. now, how should i define 'well'?

put the serious stuff aside. it is only the weekend.

throat infection

today was the most horrible, painful test i had ever taken. my health is failing me recently. i thought all was well last week but no! the throat infection is still there, leading to this fever i am having now. gross! i think it is time for me to purge out all the toxics in my body, probably readjust my body alarm to a slightly healthy one, and yes, move my body a little bit more.

this failing health. boring. sucks. maybe i am not handling things well within my control. maybe i should learn to let things go sometimes. maybe i should learn how to relax. damn.

i am going to be a real good girl, camp and lock myself in my room, rest and take my medicine. i am going to get my pink health back in no time. =) just wait and see.